Throughout my life, I’ve spent a lot of time and effort pursing “truth.” I’ve tried to be as honest with myself as possible. As unattractive as it sounds, I’ve tried to be right. But when and why did being right become a bad thing?
For me, I’ve tried to move out of the rut of binary thinking–everything is black OR white. It’s not wise to deem everything good OR evil, good OR bad, right OR wrong. The truth is often grey. It’s usually both/and rather than either/or. So even though a pursuit of truth sound binary, it ultimately ends up not binary.
For some it might be a competitive thing. I believe that all humans are in pursuit of truth, in pursuit of right-ness. We want the greatest life we can create. And there’s wrong ways to achieve that, and there’s right ways. “Right” is what we call ideas that work. And it “works” when it makes us happy or successful.
However, if all humans are in this pursuit of happiness via right-ness, but we don’t like it when we look over and see someone being more right or even thinking their “right,” our insecurity turns us inside out. No one likes a know-it-all. At least human ones. But we like being right, so we obtain right-ness by inventing an imaginary supernatural know-it-all and attach our rightness to it.
We’re so repulsed when other humans discover right-ness, that even if they are, in fact, right, it’s too humiliating to admit it. So our pride ends up showing up as false humility, saying “I don’t know” when the truth is right in front of us and “I know” when there’s absolutely no evidence for it but our imaginary supernatural know-it-all says it.
In this predicament, we end up convincing ourselves we don’t like truth, or honesty, or right-ness when it comes from humans. We go from truth-seekers to truth-haters; from anti-stupid to anti-intellectual. All because the tension of our innate pursuit of right-ness and our commitment to to the imaginary know-it-all. Here we have false knowledge given by a false source but we sure feel good about ourselves, which was our real pursuit all along. We end up telling ourselves, “truth is over-rated.”